Why Tonight?

Since I’ve started hanging out with the straight folks and going to straight bars and meeting straight guys, I’ve found myself so disenchanted. I often thought that perhaps if I hung out with more straight people, I’d meet some dude to have regular sex with and sometimes good conversation.

But really, I’ve realized the male situation is bleak. The male situation is really a matter of the stars aligning. There are millions of factors that need to be in place for two people to fall in love and to stay together. It seems almost impossible.

Sometimes I go out in hopes of maybe meeting someone. Silly, I know. Then I wonder, how many nights have I been out, how many men have I met, how many men have I dated… and why, why would tonight be the night I met the person with whom I’d spend the rest of my life?