It's In The Blood

For those of you who read all about my Mexico trip, my gramps is now in the nursing home… my grandma is going crazy being at home alone. My parents are trying to get them to move to SoCal as my psychiatrist dad works closely with a nursing home there, and then grandma won’t have to live in an empty house. However, my obstinate grandma (that’s where I get it) won’t budge. She doesn’t want to leave the home she’s been in for 30 years.

So, I’m sitting here in San Francisco, now 100% certain I’m going to grad school assuming I can get my ass in somewhere, and I’m bored as fuck… I’ve always been a restless one, what a fucking surprise right?!?! Anyway, there’s a good chance I may just move my ass to Massachusetts for one year… here are the pros and cons:

Pros of Moving to Massachusetts:

1. My grandma won’t be alone
2. I can regularly visit my grandpa with whom I am very close, and who knows how long he’ll be around
3. I will live rent free and pay-off debt before grad school
4. I’ll actually get to spend time with my 2 half sisters (5 & 15) and 2 half brothers (17 & 19)… I’m definitely one for blood, and I never get enough time w/ them, so this is pretty huge for me.
5. I’ll see my real dad a bit more (this could be a con too, hahaha!)
6. I’ll get to kick it w/ my aunt, who’s pretty young, wild and crazy!
7. My grandma will teach me how to cook all of my favorite recipes
8. I’ll have a change of scenery for a year – I haven’t lived on the east coast since I was about 8 (Massachusetts/Vermont) I did spend every single summer and winter there until I was about 16/17 (fun and exciting custody, visiting real dad in Mass), BUT ANYWAY.
9. I’ll take my prereq’s at a local community college, and I’ll get plenty of studying done when my grandma’s not nagging at me, haha!

Cons of Moving to Massachusetts:

1. I’ll leave an uber fun city for a year
2. I won’t have a group of friends there… well, instead I’ll have 3 sets of grandparents, 2 aunts, 1 uncle, 2 sisters, 2 brothers, 3 cousins, 1 dad, 1 badass ex-step mom (of 11 years), and 1 rad godmother
3. I’ll miss my friends here
4. I’ll miss my job here
5. The actual process of moving is arduous, and I have truly done this too many times
6. I hated my Massachusetts summers… HUMIDITY & MOSQUITOES!!! And grams, does not have AC.
7. My little sister graduates from college in June and may be headed to San Francisco... I want to make sure she stays, so being here when she arrives could work to my advantage... I want her to live her more than anything!!!

Reasons Why This Is Possible:

1. I have ZERO strings at this point in my life
2. I know I’m going to come back in a year to go to grad school
3. It’s a crazy time for a lot of my friends, so they can live without Miss Curious for ONE itty-bitty year. (i.e. LaSassy’s uber busy in law school, Chicajato works in a gazillion cities, Midge moved, GreenEyes doesn’t live in the city YET, etc)
4. My uncle can probably find me a job (BUT, not finding one could actually pose as my BIGGEST PROBLEM)

In Conclusion:

Ultimately, I have to wait and see what my grandparents decide to do... they may just decide to move to SoCal in which case I'd stay here. Then, there's finding a job in Massachusetts... I'd like something close to my grandparents home and something that will enable me to chip away at my debt and save some dinero as well... this could be an impossible task.

I must admit I'm half in love w/ the idea. I'm getting tired of going out to the same places... doing the same things... a change of pace would be refreshing. It's not going to be all fun and games though... my grandma makes me want to pull my hair out half the time, but I can't stand hearing that shaky voice as she holds back her tears when she talks about being alone her home... it makes me want to throw-up with how sad I get for her... and gramps in the nursings home. Did I mention I'm close to my family?! Um, yeah.